Monday, October 5, 2009

my self

So apparently some of the girls are starting to think guys don't have body image issues but I know that I have them and I am sure that I’m not the only one out there. You may be asking yourself what kind of body image issues could a young male sex toy reviewer and blogger have? Well all kinds of them, like I always think I am fat I know I am not by the standard but I have a gut and I think it makes me look fat. This I believe is caused by me not wanting to look like my dad when I get older. Seeing as most of you don’t know my dad is highly over weight and has problems walking most days. Something else I am highly self conscious of is my ass yes I have one and it is bigger than most guys I know or have seen. I wasn’t really that self-conscious till I got in to high school and some kids pointed out to me how odd it was that I was a guy and had an ass. So for a while I wouldn’t were tight pants and sat a lot so no one would notice but now I am a little better it’s just when I am naked now. One of the worst things that has ever happened so far is after this one time me and my one partner were trying out pegging and it wasn't anything I ever did before but I was very interested in; then after this amazing time it was all killed with one sound "eww" I was so embarrassed and I almost never wanted to try pegging again after that. I slowly got over it but I am still iffy sometimes about it. I think I am crazy some times because of the things I think like with this new thing I am reviewing that I have to use every night. My partner seen me in it and giggled then I hid under the covers so she couldn't see why I did this I don’t know it just felt odd and uncomfortable. My last partner also gave my another issue about body hair I think it is normal to have some but now in some places I can’t stand it and I think it looks grouse. Surprisingly I think I have the fewest amount of issues with my cock like I think most guys would have because I always tell people it is small, even though it is about average, so when someone sees it it’s bigger then what they were thinking and no one is let down so it is like my little safety net. These things are what I think about all the time and they can get in the way of other things I want to do some times but it is what I live with every day. Hopefully one day I won’t have them anymore but till then I won’t go to the beach as much as I want, I won’t go out topless, and I won’t go streaking for the fun of it.